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If you're in the US or have signed up to a pretty sweet deal over here across the pond, you would have seen the second episode of the brand new series of Keeping Up With The Kardashians last night.
And it was a bit of an emotional rollercoaster.
The episode saw Kim Kardashian confide in her family and recount the horrific ordeal she suffered in Paris last year, when she was held at gunpoint and robbed of nearly $10million of jewellery.
For some weeks there has been a number of teasers released offering up more details about the terrifying events that took place during Paris Fashion Week and last night's episode saw Kim give her full account.
An emotional Kim revealed the moment she thought the gunmen were going to rape her and shoot her in the head: "Then he duck tapes my face, and then my mouth, to like, make not yell and then he grabs my legs, and I wasn't… you know, I had no clothes on under so he pulled me towards him at the front of the bed and I thought this is the moment they're going to rape me.
"I fully prepped my myself but then he didn’t.
"Then he had the gun up to me and I just knew that was the moment."
Speaking in the episode, Kourtney reveals how earlier that day her and Kim had spoken about what they would do if they were ever robbed.
She says: "Did I tell you we had that conversation that day about what you would do in this situation? And Kim was like, 'I would tell them to take whatever you want'."
Kim also explained how she believes the robbers had been watching her and her group for their entire trip in Paris.
"If you wait across the street you can see the lights on. We were the first floor and they must have been told we were the first floor. They must have been watching.
"I turned the lights off and went upstairs, what I think happened now, after thinking about it so much, is there was probably a group of guys following us the entire trip.
"I was Snapchatting that I was home and everyone was going out, so I think they knew Pascal [Kim's bodyguard] was out with Kourtney and I was there by myself.
"They had to have known we were leaving that day. They had that window or opportunity and just went for it."
Watch a catch-up of the second episode here:
Taking to Twitter before the episode aired, Kim told her fans watching the show would be very tough for her.
She also took the opportunity to explain why she chose to share her ordeal and thanks her fans, friends and family for their support.